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Stare Into The Abyss, It Stares Back

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I continue to self sabotage myself
in spite of knowing the consequences
as if the illusion of my illness
transcends reality&repercussion,

I am untouchable
my depression whispers into my ears-
subtlety and misery
come hand in hand
when traversing this land

My anxiety curses my depression
and my insomnia thrives
within the chaos

I can't get a firm grasp
on my sense of self
or urgency
when my life is out of control
circling down the drain
and there's no one to blame
but myself

Self reflection is a must
even when it's hard to trust
any judgment your mind casts
when its my mental state
that keeps dragging me down

I have to assess my footing
and regain my stable ground
even if a(nxiety)i(nsomnia)d(epression)
would have me lost&stranded

Still, my entire body trembles
with guilt and regret,
reminding me of not
only what I did
but the things that
I should have done

I pray you'll never have
to bare witness to
my

temper
ego
rage
self loathing
doubt
despair
panic

because I fear I
haven't the strength
this time
to pull myself back
out of the abyss

So I'll stare straight into it
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